Antuking nilalang!

Ay Im still awake! Pano maghapon akong tulog! sobrang takaw ko tlga sa tulog! Imagine I woke up around 9am, then i watched tv, maya-maya tulog na ko.. i woke up cguro mga around 2pm. I ate my late lunch, then after that I watched again.. ay sus tulog na naman ako.

Sa ilang beses akong nakatulog, ang dami kong napanaginipan. Like I was crying daw kc ayoko pumunta ng States kc ang panget ung magiging buhay ko don, that Im gonna miss my family so much... sobrang mahohomesick daw ako. Na super worried ung husband ko, kc di nya lam kung ano gagawin just to make me feel better.

Speaking of that family thing... minsan sumagi sa isip ko na gusto ko na magka-baby. Thou i know its not yet time to have one, but sometimes i thought why not di ba.. bat pa namen patatagalin. I have friends who are expectant moms and already moms. Im inggit lang kse they're so proud to their kids and how their husband take good care of them when they're still pregnant.. something like that. Minsan, I was watching tv and this husband was so happy carrying their new born baby. Hayyy... I know someday it will come.

As usual meron na naman akong negative thoughts about it. Knina sa news, namatay ung mom after she gave birth. According to the doctor, its some kind of infections kya natigok si mommy and so sad kse may bukol sa may neck ung baby and its congenital. I was praying na sana this wont happen to me. Sabi nga nila, pagnanganganak daw, ung isang paa nsa hukay na. Naku kung ano-ano na lang naiisip ko..matutulog na ko!!