I feel pain.... inside and outside

Today was a tiring day for me... For almost 5 years of working, now lang ako napagod... and im sure everyday na kong pagod! This past few years, all what im doing was just phonecalls, print reports, email, chumika at kumain! nyahaha! kung suswertehin, doing nothing at all... thou boring un no! My petiks petiks days passed! Its about time na mapakinabangan na nila ako... since Im now a new accounts teller... d pa official since our president havent sign yet my form.. pero im doing it na for almost 2 weeks. My only complain, body aches naman! Better na rin ung busy ako kse im having some difficulties now a days...

At this point in my life, as I grow older... all challenges in life, little by little nararamdaman ko na... Minsan gusto kong isipin na, God has a purpose.. but sometimes i wonder why kung ano ung purpose na un. So many thoughts in my mind... nakakaconfused! Sakit ng ulo, buong kalamnan!!! Minsan wala kang choices, napipilitan kang gawin na ayaw mo. You dont even know kung for the better yung gagawin na un. Torture tlaga! Minsan naisip ko, mas gusto ko ung sakit physically kse nagagamot, pero ung emotional, ang hirap ng gamutin, ang hirap pang pagalingin.